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[he looks thoughtful at that]

.... I don't know.

[if he's being honest]

Do you feel like you gained?

[ Well. When he asks it like that, Medb actually takes a moment. ]

Not really, but I think it'd feel worse not knowing. So I will give it to Law that he at least was ready to be honest.

[ Even if it felt like Law had just given up on resisting. ]

[he nods at that]

Yeah. I think it would be worse if we didn't have any answers for another week, too. [he won't hide from that]

.... is it rude of me if I say that I hope you get to show up tomorrow?

[she already said she wanted it to be her but.

this is pretty much the only way he can comfortably say 'go get him']

[ She smiles a little at that. ]

No. I said as much, didn't I? [ Thank you for your support, Mineo. ] I feel like some people were worried I couldn't wait.

[ But she didn't make a single move towards Law. ]

[ . . . . if he's going to be honest - ]

... if I were in your shoes, I don't know whether or not I could've.

So... you're a pretty powerful person to me, Queen Medb.

I am very powerful.

[ At least, the last few days haven't been enough to take out of her confidence or her arrogance. ]

But sometimes, I am more queen than anything else.

[he manages a bit of a smile like that]

.... is that part of your background too? I only know Ashiya-san's.... Sorry, if this is a dumb question.

But I guess if it's written into everything that you are... I can see it.

Yeah, we're alike like that. What we're known for is the strongest thing about us.

[ Sometimes, it's a boon. Other times, it's a curse. ]

I was most famous in my years as a queen.

What was that like? Being a queen?

[and he'll just gesture for her to come along and walk with him - ]

... Unless you wanna talk about something else, after all that.

[ Sure, she won't mind walking with him. ]

No, we can talk about it. I just think parts of my legend would make you a little embarrassed.

[ She has no compunctions about talking about it, but there isn't quite as much fun in bullying Mineo about his virgin sensibilities. Not after the first time, at least. ]

A lot of men fought to be my king.

[ . . . . . hm. yeah he's flustering a little bit as he starts putting some things together and he just coughs awkwardly as he looks away]

W-Well....!

That's not super surprising...

[she's really pretty????? she deserves to have men fight to be with her????]

- did you end up with one eventually? A king?

I told you.

[ But she likes that he drinks respect women juice. ]

I did. I had three. I left the first one. The second one died.

[ And she stuck with the third one. So it's probably fine. ]

[oh....]

What was the third one like?

[was it LOVE?]

He was better than the other two, for sure, at least for a while.

[ It's hard to say if it was love or not, but there's some faint nostalgia in the way she speaks. ]

He grew jealous a little too easily, though. And he cheated on me.

[wh]

He what?!

[THE INSTANT WAY HE GETS PISSED ON MEDB'S BEHALF]

What an asshole!

[ That makes her laugh a little. Thanks for taking her side even though she hasn't hidden that she's promiscuous. ]

Yeah, he really was. I didn't and still don't forgive him for what he did, but I don't mind remembering what used to be nice.

[ She's separated enough and has gained new things to focus on, so she's over him. ]

[ . . . . he just sighs a little bit at that.]

... I guess that's a good take on it....

But it's not alright for someone to betray your trust like that - especially if you were in love.

[i can't even say 'mineo you romantic' bc in general cheating is a faux pas??????]

[ Was she in love? That's a good question. ]

Marriage when you're royalty isn't always based on love. Sometimes, it's political.

But it sound like you'll treat whoever you choose and whoever chooses you back vey well.

[ . . . . . oh right royalty dynamics. he looks thoughtful about that before he blinks at her next statement and.]

... I want to.

[ . . . ]

I don't think that's the kind of thing to think about in a place like this though.

[everyone keeps roasting mineo over his love life and he is just so 'why' about it but. life when you're a romantic....]

Even if we're all supposed to indulge here, that doesn't mean love can't blossom. Emotions are emotions, no matter how tangled or messy they become.

Or how neat and pure they are.

[ It may not be the best idea, but can anyone control their heart?

Wasn't what was talked about in trial proof enough? However true or untrue the gay drama is. ]

It may not be wise, but is love wise?

[ . . . ]

You're preaching to the choir, Queen Medb.

[but he doesn't seem - flustered? rather, he seems like he's thinking rather seriously about it. despite his previous statement that he shouldn't be thinking about it... it seems like he's willing to listen to her sentiments.]

... but if I can't give all of myself to someone, I don't think that's love. Even if I have crushes, or I fall for people - I don't think that's the same thing as love or being in love.

I think if it's really love...

[he glances up to the ceiling in thought]

... it can wait. Just until we all get our wishes. Because isn't part of love wanting someone to succeed?

[ Love is a complicated topic for Medb. It's in part because of how she lived and in part because of what she's known for. ]

I don't think I'm someone who can wait like that.

[ It comes out as almost uncertain, as if she's not sure if that's something that will be true forever, but it is true now. ]

If you love, shouldn't you succeed with them?

.... that's not really possible. At least... not right now. And not with... me as I am.

[he rubs the back of his neck at that, almost sheepish]

... I think I'm too lost to be able to give someone all of me, even if I want to. Or... maybe the me right now isn't good enough to really give.

[ . . . ]

But I don't think that you and I would really have the same problems.

[medb is, in fact, a queen]

What do you mean by that?

[ She knows it's probably too personal a question when they've only had any deep conversations in the past two days, but she wouldn't be her if she just didn't ask it. ]

What's holding you back? Even without the setup of this place, what's keeping you from - love?

[ When it seems pretty apparent that he wants to. ]

How are you lost?

[he just laughs a little bit at that - surprised by the directness of the question but.]

... you're straightforward. It's pretty nice. Thanks for asking.

[he'll just say it.]

... I think I care too much - about too many concepts, too many people, too many things. My head's a mess, and I don't know up from down. Justice from injustice. You asked me if we broke even, and I still don't know. I voted, but I don't know if it was the right thing to do - I just did it because I thought 'ah, I can't risk us losing another innocent life'.

But what does 'innocent' even mean, when we're all just - here? In this system, letting people die, in theory some of us killing each other.

And I haven't found my answers yet. About good or bad, right or wrong, and maybe I'll be searching for a long time -

.... but I don't want to give anybody this half-baked version of me that's still just starting to figure stuff out.

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