[when medb comes looking for her, she's beating up a punching bag in the gym! her emotional state is... mostly angry, but there's some growing fear there as well.
still, when she sees her, she'll stop kicking this poor bag and look towards her, trying to see what her emotional state is instead.]
[a beat of surprise in response to that reaction, but - there's no denying there's relief, too.]
He brought them in...? Honestly, I wonder if he didn't realize at first that he hadn't fallen asleep and woken up. I can't think of another reason he would be walking around with breakfast.
[ She feels a little dead inside? There's intense judgment, but it dissipates, just so she can radiate how much she's fine with Endorsi. After all, Medb accepted Endorsi fine after seeing her kill all those people in her memories. ]
It wasn't even our first or second week. He should have been more aware.
[squeezes it back, with a little sense of genuine, deep fondness.]
Right. How much have I told you about the tower and the tests...? Not much, right, other than that you have to climb to the top to get the things you want?
Well, they're difficult, but more than that, they're dangerous. You can't get a reward like that without risking your life, you know? Or without hurting other people.
[And maybe that's why she was so willing to do both things here, but... She pauses for a moment, a sense of loss and grief coming through, anger accompanying it.]
I've never been too upset about it before. What's the point in trying to stop the way the world works, you know? But... A few weeks before I came here, there was a boy and a girl I met. Close friends, I think, though their relationship does seem like it's complicated. At the very least, he cared about her more than anything.
[there's a little sigh there, a stirring of distaste - it's not hard to guess that whoever that girl is, there's a sense of dislike as she talks about her.]
All of us there on the floor where we met them - well, he was a nice person. Friendly, kind, much too softhearted for the kind of place I come from. It's not hard to see how we all got attached to him pretty quickly. But - during a test, she was injured badly enough that she couldn't walk, which meant she couldn't continue up the tower on her own. That boy had to take a special test, a more difficult one, for permission to take her to the next floor, so she wouldn't be disqualified for her injuries.
[ Medb's arms wrap around Endorsi in a hug. If she felt that much loss and grief, she must have really liked this boy. She wonders idly, if this boy and Mineo have similarities?
But there's understanding from Medb. ]
You want to bring him back. You care enough about him to kill for him.
...That on its own is probably true, but that's not all, either.
[But she'll return the hug! Soft.]
Mm, I've said before that I don't mind the way the world is. I don't mind having to fight or earn my way by doing things other people aren't proud of. But for someone like him... [...] He's too kind. Too willing to stick his neck out for other people. Even if I brought him back, whose to say he wouldn't make another mistake like that? So - I wouldn't mind making the kind of world that would have allowed someone like him to live.
There's other things I'd like to change about it... Things that only have to do with myself, things that are a little more selfish. But - I wouldn't mind seeing him smile when he comes back, I guess.
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w6, saturday.
still, when she sees her, she'll stop kicking this poor bag and look towards her, trying to see what her emotional state is instead.]
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Any of Medb's other emotions are coiled and unreadable. It's not blank, but it's like she's using the part of her that's a queen for this. ]
What are you angry at, Endorsi? What are you afraid of?
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[ughhhh.]
If anyone decides to retaliate, I don't have a way to stop them.
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Who do you think will retaliate? Most of them signed Childe's life away during that meeting.
The effort that went into the trial...
[ She waves her hand. Who would care enough? ]
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[she looks towards medb, though, concern filtering in.]
I know you wanted to find him. Is it better that we did?
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[ She sighs, and she is a little tired. ]
He came out and said it anyway. I'll tell you I'm probably going to hit him once.
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[but, after a second:]
There's something I'm going to tell both him and White, and I want you to know, too.
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Hm? What is it?
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I killed Luca.
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Okay. Thank you for telling me.
[ She walks up to Endorsi and kisses her on the cheek. There's no condemnation whatsoever, but... ]
What were the croissants about?
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He brought them in...? Honestly, I wonder if he didn't realize at first that he hadn't fallen asleep and woken up. I can't think of another reason he would be walking around with breakfast.
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It wasn't even our first or second week. He should have been more aware.
[ She catches Endorsi's hand. ]
What's your wish, Endorsi?
[ What did she kill for? ]
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[echoing that judgment! before she turns more somber, taking medb's hand.]
I don't mind telling you, but it's a little bit of a long story, too.
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[ She squeezes her hand. ]
No one's being executed tomorrow, so we have a lot of time tonight.
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Right. How much have I told you about the tower and the tests...? Not much, right, other than that you have to climb to the top to get the things you want?
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Yeah, that's about all I know. I'm sure there's more to it. There always is.
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[And maybe that's why she was so willing to do both things here, but... She pauses for a moment, a sense of loss and grief coming through, anger accompanying it.]
I've never been too upset about it before. What's the point in trying to stop the way the world works, you know? But... A few weeks before I came here, there was a boy and a girl I met. Close friends, I think, though their relationship does seem like it's complicated. At the very least, he cared about her more than anything.
[there's a little sigh there, a stirring of distaste - it's not hard to guess that whoever that girl is, there's a sense of dislike as she talks about her.]
All of us there on the floor where we met them - well, he was a nice person. Friendly, kind, much too softhearted for the kind of place I come from. It's not hard to see how we all got attached to him pretty quickly. But - during a test, she was injured badly enough that she couldn't walk, which meant she couldn't continue up the tower on her own. That boy had to take a special test, a more difficult one, for permission to take her to the next floor, so she wouldn't be disqualified for her injuries.
[...]
He didn't live.
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But there's understanding from Medb. ]
You want to bring him back. You care enough about him to kill for him.
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[But she'll return the hug! Soft.]
Mm, I've said before that I don't mind the way the world is. I don't mind having to fight or earn my way by doing things other people aren't proud of. But for someone like him... [...] He's too kind. Too willing to stick his neck out for other people. Even if I brought him back, whose to say he wouldn't make another mistake like that? So - I wouldn't mind making the kind of world that would have allowed someone like him to live.
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You're fine with the world for yourself. You're not fine with the world for people like that.
Changing the world is a hefty wish.
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There's other things I'd like to change about it... Things that only have to do with myself, things that are a little more selfish. But - I wouldn't mind seeing him smile when he comes back, I guess.
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[ She isn't going to say selfishness isn't valid when she's as selfish as she is. ]
He must have really touched your heart.
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[but she'll be able to feel fondness, too, aside from the digging sense of loss.]
He was a good guy, though.
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[ She laughs. All these tsuns... ]
I can tell you I like you ten times without blinking.
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Ha... I like you, too.
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