[She raises an eyebrow a little when Medb says she likes her, but it doesn't seem like. . . offended or anything. Just a little bewildered.]
. . . I truly don't mind explaining. I would have at trial, if I hadn't been cursed.
She came to me on Sunday and confessed she planned to murder someone this week. My boon was one that let me borrow someone else's, so I borrowed the obsession boon and gave her an obsession on Thursday night not to let anyone die. She woke up as planned to go kill Grace, but the obsession wouldn't allow her to go through with it, so she returned to sleep.
Apparently, this place does not like it if you back out of a planned murder, so the burns placed on her were a response to that. She didn't kill Eleanor; she was deemed guilty because she'd intended to kill Grace.
Mm. I don't think they're mutually exclusive. Emotions aren't clean cut, and I think you can feel bad but still not regret what you've done. You just seem like someone who's very decisive.
[ She doesn't think it's terrible. ]
You made a choice, and you're living by it. Isn't that right?
[Defensive 'I don't care and I'm definitely not mad' levels reduce significantly.]
It doesn't sit well with me, that I played a role in her death, but playing a role in Grace's death wouldn't have sat with me either. She shouldn't have involved me. Since she did, I had to act on what I thought best.
[ Medb thinks Misa confided in Harrow for a reason. What that reason was, Medb can only make a guess at. ]
It seemed like you tried to minimize damage where you could. You could have chosen to give her any other type of obsession to deter her but chose one to not let anyone die.
That says something, doesn't it?
[ She already said, it doesn't sit well with her to have played a role in those deaths, and isn't that just more proof? ]
[She's a little mystified by it, too. She can understand the general concept, of wanting to either be loved or die.]
I couldn't have, so it is an irrelevant question. I did try, but she didn't want to live anymore if she didn't succeed, and she felt like she was not likely to succeed here without taking the risk. And I do understand that, I suppose.
She had the ambition, but not the intelligence. [Rude.] Every step of her plan was a mistake. From telling me in the first place, to cursing me five minutes after she ought to have.
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[ Medb doesn't hesitate to say when she likes someone because she doesn't see reason to. ]
But I did want to know your thoughts on everything, now that you're more yourself. You seemed to be at the center of it, so I wanted your perspective.
[ What the hell happened, Harrow? ]
sorry i missed this!
. . . I truly don't mind explaining. I would have at trial, if I hadn't been cursed.
She came to me on Sunday and confessed she planned to murder someone this week. My boon was one that let me borrow someone else's, so I borrowed the obsession boon and gave her an obsession on Thursday night not to let anyone die. She woke up as planned to go kill Grace, but the obsession wouldn't allow her to go through with it, so she returned to sleep.
Apparently, this place does not like it if you back out of a planned murder, so the burns placed on her were a response to that. She didn't kill Eleanor; she was deemed guilty because she'd intended to kill Grace.
no worries
So it's all about the intention here, huh? Well, that makes sense.
You don't regret it at all, do you?
Re: no worries
[She seems a little startled at the question, ready to get defensive, maybe. But then she just laughs.]
This is why I like you, as well. So many have treated this as a matter of whether my feelings were hurt, when she died because I betrayed her.
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[ She doesn't think it's terrible. ]
You made a choice, and you're living by it. Isn't that right?
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[Defensive 'I don't care and I'm definitely not mad' levels reduce significantly.]
It doesn't sit well with me, that I played a role in her death, but playing a role in Grace's death wouldn't have sat with me either. She shouldn't have involved me. Since she did, I had to act on what I thought best.
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It seemed like you tried to minimize damage where you could. You could have chosen to give her any other type of obsession to deter her but chose one to not let anyone die.
That says something, doesn't it?
[ She already said, it doesn't sit well with her to have played a role in those deaths, and isn't that just more proof? ]
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[Honestly, it was probably due to her aesthetic.]
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[ Medb sounds almost mystified by it. The little she heard about Misa's boyfriend was not very good. ]
But if you could have changed her mind, would you have wanted to?
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[She's a little mystified by it, too. She can understand the general concept, of wanting to either be loved or die.]
I couldn't have, so it is an irrelevant question. I did try, but she didn't want to live anymore if she didn't succeed, and she felt like she was not likely to succeed here without taking the risk. And I do understand that, I suppose.
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But Medb thinks that's an awfully teenage dramatic mindset of Misa. ]
I can't say she lacked ambition for the lengths she chose to go to. I can recognize that.
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Yeah, she could have worn gloves when she tried the Medbay pod, too.
[ Acting would only get her so far. ]