[ Medb wants to say yes, but she doesn't truly know. She wants to think she did. If she didn't, she wouldn't have died like that, as selfish and self-serving as she can be.
Love isn't simple, and love isn't clean cut. Maybe it wasn't a good or healthy love, but it could have been love, couldn't it? ]
I think I wanted to. I think I loved him in my own way but not in a way others would like to understand.
[She's not usually that direct about it, but something about seeing that memory - something about how concerned she was when she came out of the memory and realized the reality of that death... It makes her a little bit more honest. Besides, Medb is one of the rare people she thinks of as her equal.]
Do you think you'll go back to him when you go home?
[ There isn’t much distance between them, but if Endorsi lets her, Medb closes the space between them and loops her arms around her in a loose embrace before pressing a kiss to the corner of her mouth. ]
I don’t need him, and he died after I did.
[ That’s true enough even if there may be a part of her that still vies for him. ]
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Love isn't simple, and love isn't clean cut. Maybe it wasn't a good or healthy love, but it could have been love, couldn't it? ]
I think I wanted to. I think I loved him in my own way but not in a way others would like to understand.
I know I wanted him.
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[It doesn't take away the fact that, whatever she felt, it was real. That being said:]
I think you deserve better.
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I really like you, Endorsi.
[ Fondness warms her tone; affections softens her voice. ]
You're right. On both counts.
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[She's not usually that direct about it, but something about seeing that memory - something about how concerned she was when she came out of the memory and realized the reality of that death... It makes her a little bit more honest. Besides, Medb is one of the rare people she thinks of as her equal.]
Do you think you'll go back to him when you go home?
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I don’t need him, and he died after I did.
[ That’s true enough even if there may be a part of her that still vies for him. ]
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Is it insensitive to say I'm glad you don't need him...?
[probably]
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No.
[ Medb isn't much for sensitivity. She wants him, but she doesn't need him. ]
I'll take it as a compliment.
[ She's going to interpret it that Endorsi wants her to have more and better. ]
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